wondering..

lama banget gw abandon blog ini. hahaha
I used to have much time, but now.. time just flies.

banyak banget hal yang terjadi belakangan ini. mungkin gak semuanya baik, tapi something happen for reasons.
I believe so.

gampang kalo akhirnya gw bisa mengerti. dan memaklumi. tapi nyatanya gw gak bisa, dan walaupun menyakitkan, kadang kita harus melepaskan.

pandangan gw memang gak biasa. kadang memang menyakitkan orang. kadang juga merugikan. tapi mau gimana lagi, gw bisa berpikir seperti itu juga pasti ada alesannya. apapun alesannya itu konkrit. jadi jangan tanya kenapa.

anyway,
gw lagi bikin project. projects. hahahaha. ada sesuatu yang menuntut perhatian penuh gw, membuat pikiran gw lebih fokus, dan sekarang gw lagi ngumpulin data tentang itu.

it's nice to have time for yourself.
I know I'm a selfish person. I do things if I want to. and I love to win.
but sometimes it's tiring. sometimes I need place and space to quiet.
sometimes I just got carried away by any actions that I made. and I need to think maybe I felt sorry about it. maybe I'm tired checking things to be okay, and done properly.
or maybe it's time to change. maybe it's time for coping things, tidying up.
or maybe it's just another path to go through,

I love being free.
I love my solitude time
I love things to be things as they are. not by my mentioning.

but sometimes things happen, and I can't control it.
sometimes things happen because I want it to be, then I can't control the things that pop out afterwards.
maybe sometimes..
maybe sometimes..